What is wrong with me? I am a Texas girl, there are expectations to be met. I am supposed to be outspoken and outgoing, I am supposed to be a social butterfly, but instead I am an awkward as hell caterpillar. How does this make any sense? If you saw my mother you would automatically assume I would be just as social as her. Which is not true. I wish I was just as social as her. I used to be in high school… and then once I got to college, gained weight during a shitty relationship, and lost all confidence. I do not randomly start talking to people, and even the people I have seen on more than one occasion, I never approach them first. It always has to be them.
This morning a gentleman that I have had in a class before sat next to me before my nine o’clock class and just started talking to me like we weren’t strangers at all. I panicked and at first just sat there and looked at him, then he started asking me questions about the previous test, where I was Monday — throwing up and nauseated like no other — and what I was looking at on pinterest. I tried to respond accordingly.
Man, I suck at being social.