I am trying this new thing where I try to be more optimistic and positive about life and myself. I am a hardcore realist on the edge of becoming a pessimist because I believe that anytime something is going good in my life that something horrible is going to follow it. I am tired of the negative thoughts I had been harboring away for so long. I know it is a lot to do with how my family can be and how they talk about everything (with a negative outlook on everything). I don’t want to be that person. I have always had a low self-esteem and for once I am pretty confident in myself with how I look. I am not perfect, I probably won’t ever be a size three again, but that’s fine. Life isn’t always going to go my way and I cannot think that it is going to. I just need to be happy with what I have and with who I am. I have a great relationship – yes, it has its faults, that’s typical. I am in college trying to get a degree in Business. I have family, even though we are not close, they are there. Life could be a lot worse. Spring brings out the better in me, as does summer. I just need to remember these thoughts when it turns back to winter eventually.